god gave me a complaining heart?

so i find myself complaining all. the. time.

nothing seems right. 

the smallest things makes me unhappy.

i find fault with most all things.

i thrive on someone doing me wrong.

it seems to have taken over my whole life.

i don't "like" the curcumstance sourrounding my life.

i'm not happy with the "hand i've been dealt"

i certainly didn't choose the things going on.

i've always done the right thing, when does that pay off.

this complaining list could go on... i promise.

i thought the lord had just given me a "complaining heart"

then...

sunday morning during church, a friend's testimony of helping others touched my heart.

down inside, where the lord could give the ol' devil a boot.

the lord opened my eyes to a world i didn't seem to see.

i have a beautiful home.

2 very healthy children.

 my husband has a good job.

we are blessed.

beyond measure.

way. beyond. measure.

so i realized i had given myself a "complaining heart"

i had pushed the lord out so i could allow the devil to move in.

i allowed the devil to blind me to all the incredible things that are happening right in front of me.

the simple things, but incredible.